Friday, January 14, 2011

"Hold your head high gorgeous..... there are people who would kill to see you fall..."

Tomorrow is the last day of my vacation before I must go back to school. Well, two actually, but I work on Sunday so I do not count that day as off! Part of me is soooo dreading going back to school and having my sanity completely crushed again, yet I am looking forward to getting this semester done so that I can finally do my student teaching! 

A HUGE plus to this semester is that I was able to have some night classes again, which in turn means I get to spend more time at home with my son during the days again! This is something that I have been looking forward to for a while now! I could have been done with classes this semester and have my summer off, but one of the classes that I have to take is not offered this semester but in the summer. This means that I had to pick up a class that I do not need for both this semester as well for the summer to receive my full financial aid.

Words cannot begin to explain how my emotions are about this last year of school.
It has been so long....
So HARD......
And so totally worth it!

Something that my grandmother told me when I was younger was this, "The more you know, the more valuable you are"

There has not been a day go by in the past four years that I have not thanked God for the life that I have now and the person that I have become and everything I overcame through everything in my life.I have such a great support system with my family and friends and such great inspirations in my life as well!

I saw this quote on a friend's site, and I thought that it fits perfectly:

"Hold your head high gorgeous..... there are people who would kill to see you fall..."

Even though I do have a great supportive family as well as wonderful friends, I know there are people out there just sitting back waiting for me to slip and fall.
Just praying for me to make a mistake......
But guess what.... It's not going to happen. Never underestimate the will power a of strong, independent woman! 

What I am looking forward to most...... Walking down the isle to retrieve my diploma and then looking out to see my husband holding our son. I am looking forward to being the first person in my family to graduate with a Bachelors degree. I am looking forward to prove everyone wrong when they said that I could not do it. 

So.... Going into this final year I just want to personally Thank all those who have supported me through this process. 

Thank you to my Mother for the hours of driving back and forth  from STL to help watch Jaydon so that I can go to class or work, for helping me catch up on laundry and cleaning when needed, and also just being there to help me get through the week!!  Thank you PaPa for helping me laugh when I wanted to cry, and for making me see reason when I wanted to ignore it.

To my Husband for all of his support through the whole process..... For tolerating my lack of appearance for four years after living off of coffee and sweet tea ) and no sleep. For distracting our son while I locked myself in the bedroom to work on homework. For working so hard to support us financially so that I did not have to work as much. And most of all, just being there to pick me back up, brush me off , give me a pep talk and throw me back in the game when I wanted to quit!

To the In-Law's for tagging in and out of the rings for last minute babysitters, support, and ready made suppers. For dogsitting as well as little man sitting. 

To the siblings for all the laughs, support, and visits for keeping my sanity!!! Thank you Aunt Jessie and Uncle John for allowing me to sleep in on my visits while also watching him so I can have relaxing time. John..... Still hoping I can have you bed on school nights ; )

To my Grandma's and Grandpa's, Aunts, Uncles, and cousins.... Thank you for everything that you have done and for all your support and always believing in me! 
 To my friends for all their love and support.... there willingness to help me whenever needed, and there wonderful need to help me relax when needed!
Thank you to my Bestie Laura for taking cat naps with me while at gatherings so that I would not feel like the only dud at the parties !!! : )  And Thank you to Mandy for the late night meetings on the front porch to wind down. Stacy for your never ending support and advise, Kelly for your guidance and help, and so so many more to thank!!!



  1. you gave me many goosebumps and teary eyes while reading this and I am at work!!! haha I am sooo stinkin proud of you!! We knew it would be worth it in the end...the getting there is the hard part!!

  2. First off let me simply say I LOVE YOU!!! We are all soooo proud of you and all that you have accomplished,, and that which is yet to be.
    Their has not a day go by that i have not felt blessed to call you my daughter... (maybe a bit less when you told me i could go and then said "not" then laughed your little laugh) You have handled and triumphed every "surprise" that life has thrown your way.. and with your head held high!! They always say that we want your children to have more than we did when we were growing up.. well you do.. you have more wisdom.. you stayed in school and worked hard to achieve you goal when the light at the end was so small.. you have more compassion... when you were talking with me at Christmas about making blankets for the shelters.. i was soooo proud of the person you have become.. many people go threw their whole life and never once think of others.. not you!! You have more patients.. more back bone.. and soooo much more.. of the things that really matter in a person! You may not have grown up with all the riches that many display on them .. you collected yours inside,, and made them who you are..
    we are always here for you if you need anything,, anytime.. i only wish we had more time together.. one day!!! :-)